Recently I have been reflecting about my parenting. My children are now entering adulthood and I wonder if I instilled in them all that they need to succeed in this world. My reflection is not because my children are out doing wild things. They do not drink, smoke or do drugs (to God be the glory). They are saved and love the Lord. They are good kids not perfect by no means but they are great. But when I look at the world today and think did I show them all that they need to make it in this world? Did I shelter them to much from the reality of the world? You know even in the little things like paying bills, being a good steward over their finances or honoring God with their words and deeds. I know my husband and I have tried to be good Godly examples for our children but sometimes I wonder did we do enough!!!!
Sometimes as parents we think that even our best is not good enough. We always want the best for our children and we try to prevent them from going through certain things because we know what the outcome will be. Many times we say “I don’t want you to do the things that I did” so we become the helicopter parents always hovering to make sure they are doing what we have instructed them to do. I know I am a “helicopter parent” I don’t know if that is good or bad but I am and I admit, I own it J. Now that my children are entering into adulthood God has to remind me that they are His just like I am His. One day a few years back I was listening to Focus on the Family and the speaker was talking about her children and she said something that still resonates in my spirit today. She said “I had to learn how to allow God to write the pages of my children’s story.” WOW it hit me like a ton of bricks just that one sentence it was like a light bulb went off in my head and in my spirit. God you have to write their story not me. I can not possibly know all that they will encounter in this life but God does. So it is my job to train them up but it is God’s job to write the story. Has this been easy no!!!!! I have failed when I have tried to let go. But every time I fail God reminds me that He has a plan for their lives and it is good, not evil and He will give them a good future.
God is writing their story just like He is continuing to write mines. Just because one chapter has come to end there is plenty of chapters left. So I say all this to say that the love of a parent never ends. Even when they are adults we will always love them and want the best for them that is what real parent do. But at the end of the day we have to let God write the pages of their life. Because He ultimately knows what is best for them. After all HE is our creator so He does know what is best for us even when we think we do. I know it is not easy to let go but allow God’s grace to help you in this process. Letting go does not mean we do not care it is when you care the most when you can let go and allow God to do is work. I imagine that Hannah could relate she wanted Samuel so bad but she made a vow that if God would give her a son she would give him back. She honored her vow and gave Samuel back to God, and see what happened? Samuel became one of the most anointed men in the Bible. The love of a parent will never end but give your children to God and watch him do what we can not do!!!!!
Matthew 6: 32 “For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
Jeremiah 29: 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I guess I need to share with you what has been happening the last 2 months. I started seminary in August, this has been something that I wanted to do for some time. I put it off when I started school because I wanted to do something to advance my career but now that is done I have embarked on this journey of seminary. Mainly I wanted to do this because I always wanted to know more about the Bible. You know those things that go deeper than just the surface of the scripture. I know that the Holy Spirit shows us the deep things of God but I wanted to have that formal education and just experience a new way of learning God’s Word. So I applied to Liberty University and got accepted. God is good. I started with two classes the last semester and let me tell you, it was not what I expected. Don’t get me wrong the classes were great but it was a lot of work. Even though I had taken a fast paced curriculum at Mount Olive this was different. I remember when I was at Mount Olive and I tool Old Testament and New Testament those were two of the hardest classes that I had taken because it was so in depth. The structure of seminary is so different but anyway it has been a learning experience I must say. I learned a lot about God and myself. I did decide that 2 classes at a time might be a little too much for me. So I am only going to take one class at a time just so that I can learn all that I need to learn and not put so much unneeded stress on myself.
I am excited about this next chapter in my life. God is so good he knows how to show you GRACE even when you probably take on too much. I put a lot on me taking on seminary along with everything else that I have going on but God showed me that it is okay for me to say NO something and He will give the Grace to handle everything else. I am taking one day at a time on this journey and I plan to enjoy it. So the lesson learned in all of this is go after your dreams and know that God will give you the wisdom, the Grace to make it come to past. He will show you when you’re over loading yourself and show you how to lessen the load so that you can be productive but not stressed. We cannot do all that we do without God’s help so lean on Him and he will totally direct your every footstep. He wants to help us so ask Him He doesn’t mind.
I have sincerely missed you guys. It has been awhile since I have blogged but I am trying to get back on track. I have started a new journey and it has taken a lot of my time, in August I started seminary at Liberty University. I wanted to write you and let you know what was going on with me but seminary has a lot of papers and reading and time would not allow for me to blog. But I am trying to get a system down so I won’t miss communicating with you all and sharing what God has laid upon my heart to share. GraceDays is my baby and I believe that God has blessed this ministry to encourage people in their time of need.
So with that said I will be back every Monday for GraceDays Monday’s. So get ready to go on this journey with me as God gives me GRACE in balancing family, seminary, work, and ministry.