Have you ever felt alone in the middle of a room full of a sea of people? The room is full to capacity with laughter and conversation. People are talking, catching up like old friends but no one is talking to you. You have a feeling of being out of place but yet you are called to be there. There are times in my life where I have been alone but people were around me. I felt that the people did not understand me or even like me but yet this is place that I have been called to serve. I have asked God how do I serve in a place when I feel so alone? How do you serve but yet you are in exile? This was hard for me I battled with my feelings of rejection, sadness and aloneness but yet I was called to serve and still held accountable to uphold the assignment.
The Bible tells us that to be a disciple that we have to take up our cross and follow after Jesus. In no way shape or form did Jesus say that following him would be easy. In fact He said that we would be persecuted for His sake and that tribulations would come but the good things is that Jesus has overcome the world. Meaning that everything that we face Jesus has overcome it for us. Jesus was exiled for a purpose when he went to the garden to pray the disciples went with him but yet he was alone because they could not even stay awake long enough to pray with him never mind pray for him. The cross was exiled the disciples left him during the hardest fight of his life but yet he endured because of the assignment he was called to. At His point of pain and despair He still had to serve. My friend just because you are in a place of exile right now the assignment does not stop. No my friend you have to push forward, wipe away the tears from your eyes and do the work.
What I learned during this time was that God was dealing with me about me. I had some problems it was not the place of serving it was I. I had to deal with old hurts and not infer my pain on those whom I served. I had to mature and realize that I am the vessel in which God has chosen to use for this time but if I didn’t get myself together I would miss out on the joy of serving with an grateful heart.
Beloved know that your purpose will always outweigh the trials. If you are feeling alone, maybe God has you in this place to work on you. Or he wants you to be in a place where it is just you and He alone in a room so that you can hear clear directions. There are some things in life that we may loose but know that God will always provide what is best for us and what is applicable to fulfill purpose. Sometimes we think we are loosing but we are actually gaining something beautiful. My friend please be encouraged and know that God has graced you to handle the exile. The time of exile is perfecting, establishing and making you better in order to fulfill purpose.
WIN, GROW, SEND
For the last 5 weeks I have been taking a discipleship class. This class is part of the seminary curriculum. Let me tell you I have learned so much in this class and I have come to the realization that I am personally falling short. This class is about disciples sharing the gospel with a purpose of multiplying disciples. This is not a class that is about church growth or how to have another program but it is about the church fulfilling the GREAT COMMISSION. Yes the Great Commission Jesus told the disciples before he left earth to ascend to heaven. Here are the words of Jesus.
The Great Commission
16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
I have read this verse many times before but it has not resonated to me like it has through this class. Jesus left us a job to do and I wonder I am the only one that has fallen short in this area. Am I the only one that wonders has the church lived up to its responsibility? I would guess to say that I am probably not the only one. For some time now I’ve had a feeling of ‘there has to be more than this’. I know that sounds a little ungrateful like what I have is not enough. What I mean by that statement is there has to be more in my Christian life than what I am doing or experiencing. Church has become more of a ritual than a spiritual experience. Sometimes we become so familiar with things and people that we do not appreciate it like we did at the beginning. I believe that is what has happen to me and so many others. Lately the feeling of wanting more than what I have been experiencing and now through this class I know why. My focus has not been where it should have been. I should be busy doing the will of the Father and that is sharing the gospel. Don’t get me wrong I preach the gospel and I will be transparent here, I have not had that intimate relationship where I have led someone to Christ without being in a church setting. Now before this class and writing this blog I would have been ashamed to say this but I think I have to be honest in order to help someone. I believe that God wants us to get out of our comfort zone and embrace the lost to reveal Christ to them. We are supposed to be ambassadors and display God’s glory in the earth in order to do that we must interact with sinners. When you look at Jesus he always interacted with people whom others frowned upon so it is our job today. Our goal is to win, grow and send out disciples. Win them to Christ, help them grow in spiritual disciplines, to help them become mature Christians and then send them out to make other disciples. The process is continuous, win, grow and send I believe this is what the church is missing. Sometimes we are so focused on our problems and what we want than what God has called us to do. Think about where you are spiritually and ask God what you can do to start winning people to Christ.