Recently an old insecurity showed it’s ugly head. I deal with this insecurity from time to time for the most part I handle it well but then there are those times when I fall prey and for a slight second or so it overtakes me. I have this insecurity of being rejected. Most people have this flaw because if we are honest no one likes being rejected. I experienced some things early in life that contributed to this insecurity. Those events caused me to build walls of protection, so that no one could get close to me. I did not allow people to become apart of my life in an intimate way because in my mind they would eventually reject me and leave. So I built these walls of defense around my heart. Slowly over the years God began to show me what I was doing and what I was dealing with. Soon I began to ask God to remove these barriers. I was flawed when it came to relationships and to a certain degree I still am. I am flawed in so many other ways but I have come to realize that even in my flaws God still loves me. He still wants to use me. God has a plan for my life flaws and all.
Many people deal with things but it does not negate God’s love for you. There is a scripture in Psalms that helps us to understand God’s love, it states. “Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb” (Psalms 139:14-15). God understands the very essence of who we are because He made us. Every intricate detail God hand woven together while we were in the womb. He knows the very hair on our heads every detail that makes us who we are God knows about it. We are a complex people, we are not the same but we are unique and beautiful in our own way.
We are flawed people because of sin but that does not mean God cannot take what is flawed and use it for His glory. Every part of you is to be used for God’s glory. I know that society paints this picture of perfection but that is not realistic. We are not perfect people but we do serve a perfect God who is pleased with His creation. You are beautifully flawed and fit for the masters’ use. Remember you do not have to be anyone but you. You are good enough, you are more than enough and you are worth it all. Everyday we need God’s grace for our flaws, our imperfections and the great thing about God is that everyday He is waiting to give us the grace that we need to do what is needed in our lives. I want to encourage you to not focus on your flaws but focus on your potential. Concentrate on your strengths not your weakness God will take care of those. Remember when your weak God is strong.